SONG OF THE MOMENT: "Ain't No Fun (If the Homies Can't Have None)" - Snoop Dogg -
No particular reason, I'm just listening to it now and feel like being a mysogenistic asshole . . . and I like the song
Hey everyone,
Sorry for not being a little bit better at updating this thing. I started it again when I needed to vent and then I got so fuckin' busy with projects and such (I'll briefly go into it in a bit) that I just forgot to start typing again.
So to give everyone out there in cyberland an update but in the most "Cliff's Notes" version as I can, things could always be better. I want to say that I haven't been feeling up to snuff lately because I've been having some health issues to put it as non-descriptive as possible. It was originally thought that because I wasn't in training therefore not at the gym, swimming, running, cycling, boxing etc. for 3 to 4 hours a day, 6 days a week and because my diet drastically changed, that those factors were the main reasons why i was having issues. Me being the hypocondriac that I am recently thought that maybe it is my appendix and since I don't have health insurance, that's really not something I want to think about. Now word is I might be mildly lactose intolerant to which i thought . . . thank god, I can deal with that. God knows I'm a broke ass chump. If I needed surgery or extra tests I don't know how in sam hell i'd be able to pay for it. Maybe i'd do porn . . . which i really did think about for a nano-second and then decided against it . . .
Speaking of sex, I haven't had it in a while and am currently on a hateful celibacy kick. Besides the "GI" issue, I'm just really not in the mood to deal with gay men. If I have been going out I've mainly been heading to the Gin Mill with all the old Hi-Tops crew (for those of you not in Chicago, the sports bar I always hang out in for cheap booze). Maybe I'm trying to turn myself straight . . . but I think about how a lot of my good friends that I like hanging out with are bartenders that I've known through the years that these bars are just less pretentious and alot cheaper. And I know I won't meet some guy there whom I can take home and have sex with and maybe have a relationship with. I am more sure then ever now that I'm one of those people in the world that is never meant to fall in love and be in a romantic relationship with anyone. (That whole line about the world is about balance, yin and yang, how two people are meant to be together, etc. . . . thats a whole bunch of bullshit) And no, I haven't talked to "him" or made any contact in almost a month, which I guess is a good thing . . .
So I guess I need to quit babbling for now. I have deadlines to meet and work to do. I'll vent later . . .
Until next time
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